Emma Watson for Wonderland Magazine (February 2014)
Ryan and I have been fighting forever. But this past week was the turning point. I cried and cried and cried and he sat and felt nothing. I’m not sure how someone who’s supposed to love you acts that way. If you married me, you love me, right? That means you care about me. That you’d do anything for me. That if I was in trouble, you’d be there for me.
I wasn’t getting the feeling that he was there, at all, when I need him. He was though. He just shows it in a different way than I expect. I know he’s been trying to tell me that forever, but being upset, it was hard for me to get that. He’s not just an asshole. He’s my asshole. He sucks at emotions and he sucks at compassion, but that’s just who he is.
As long as he tries, I’m Ok with that. I love my husband. That’s why I married him. He’s a great father, he’s a great provider, and he tries to be a good partner. Whereas I’m the opposite. Not quite, but mostly. I feel like I’m a great partner. I try to be as attentive as possible to his emotional and physical needs than he does to mine. I’m crap at money management, but I know when not to spend money. Most or the time. I lose my temper and have such little patience when it comes to Riley. I love her with everything I have and I would do anything for her, but if I don’t feel like punching her once a day, I’m not myself.
We work well together. We balance each other out I ways other people cant. He’s analytical, I’m emotional. He’s a plannrt, I go with the flow. He’s white, I’m black. We just complete that circle together that would otherwise be missing key pieces to help keep the peace.
I didn’t get that until right now. I love my husband. And as long as he tries to love me the best way he can, I’ll do the same.
Arrow on the Doorpost (*by request)
tell your #wife she looks #pretty, even if she looks like a truck
wit beyond measure is man’s greatest treasure
if only i could prove it
Hyoyeon, please don’t ever say you aren’t beautiful.
i wont stop you.